Fit Life Mama

Have been looking for a meme that summarizes how I feel on a regular basis, dealing with autoimmune diseases. I have yet to find one that speaks the truth. Perhaps only a novel or textbook would help explain what people with autoimmune disorders go through. On good days, I kick ass and take names, while having pain. On bad days, I wake up exhausted and hurt too badly to make it out of bed before hunger sets in. Today, I am way more tired than I should be. I have way less motivation than a normal person. I hate that I feel this way. What is more painful than the day-to-day, is accepting that the health conditions that I struggle with, have no cure. This is the 2nd or 3rd attempt at this blog because I just got too tired. Sounds funny. It's the truth, I watched my husband clean and reorganize the basement yesterday. I was so thankful that he did it, that task would have taken me months. My brain didn't even process what he did because I would never have the energy to complete

I have a list of drafted topics that I have yet to finish writing. I don't necessarily have one thing I have set out to share. I may honestly be procrastinating; I have a research paper due this evening. I am just about done. I am on drink #2 and would like to type something other than information about The Industrial Revolution, while it is interesting and well written (if I do say so myself), I am over it. Ruby is yelling at the dog because he is barking at one of the neighborhood strays, I am trying to listen to music over the sound of cartoons, and should be making dinner. I just celebrated my birthday and that always has me feeling nostalgic. Optimism for the future and criticism for every moment that has passed. I lost my mom a couple months before my 21st birthday and that hole she left only gets larger. I find myself regretting this said and done between the two of us and even more so, missing all of the inside jokes and outbursts of laughter. It is very difficult to desc