Finding a New Way

There are many things that nobody tells you when you decide to start your own little family. Many of these I'm sure I will delve into deeper at some point. But today I want to talk about how nobody tells you how terribly hard it is to maintain your own personal entity. I adore my daughter more than life itself, you will discover this the more you get to know me. I love my husband with my everything. It is no one person's fault that I have had to deal with this, I think it is just life. It has to just be '"growing pains." I like that- growing pains. I think that starting a family so young was the best decision I could have made. With that, though, comes figuring out who I want to be as real person. That,  and deciding what kind of mother to be and also, what type of wife. These 3 pieces to the puzzle of life are probably largest and most important to a woman in my position. My Mama raised us 3 girls by herself. She worked all of the time, between multiple jobs and caring for us. She never made time for herself, never took the time to make lasting friendships, and she always put her needs last. While there are many beautiful things that she taught me; one very important thing is to do those things for myself. She passed away at the very young age of 56. I believe that had she been a more "rounded" person, she may still be alive. "You don't stop playing because you grow old. You grow old because you stop playing." I completely agree. The point of all of this is that I want both a well rounded family and a well rounded self. I began working out consistently again in the winter of last year. I consider this to be the beginning stage of my new way. I have found where I want my life to go. I ran my first 5k this month and am training to run further distances. I hope to run a half marathon by Spring 2016. Competing in a fitness show is one of the largest goals I have in my sights right now. I am getting stronger every day, physically as well as mentally. I will be shooting a fitness themed portfolio and plan to submit photos to as many relevant companies as possible. The most exciting and nerve racking challenge ahead of me will be to become a certified personal trainer.
I have a toddler climbing on me at the moment and will be back very soon to share more! Thank you for joining me on this adventure called, my life! 💋👍